Goddamn it

I need to talk with my inner therapist.

I'm reading some of my older posts, and it's...weird. Some posts i've sorta proud of, and other posts are absolutely shocking, but it's not really that that's bothering me...Just when I read some of the posts, it feels alien. Like I didn't write it. I read them and think, 'My god, I wrote that? When I did write like that? And use those words?'. It's...scary, but it doesn't matter...*sigh* it's been a mind-blurring couple of years, my sanity is only being chipped away oh so slowly.