Another painful, stressful day, but it's getting better.
I'm resorting to my unhealthy, unhealthy coping strategies to deal with stuff, but that's the point, they're coping strategies, not long-term solutions.
I had some icecream, had a very nice jar of olives, wanted some more but I didn't have any :(...Oh well, it was probably for the best, I felt kinda sick after it anyway :P
And yeah, about my coping strategies. I'm using comfort foods, music, exercise, art and some of the milder forms of masochism to get through all this, so don't be alarmed if you see mild injuries on me.
I should do a more detailed post explaining what all this really means and what i'm talking about, but I'm gonna try and sleep. It's been my first day in a while that I haven't had stress crippling me entirely, and I'm trying to take advantage of it.
Anyway, if I have time and I can meet you all in person, and you can be bothered to ask me what all this means, I'll be happy to explain a bit further. Otherwise, night. Take care :)
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Err yeah, I'm probably going to stop this thing soon...
Yeah but nobody searches
Nobody cares somehow
When the loving that you've wasted
Comes raining from a hapless cloud
I myself may look upon your face
Disappear in the sweet, sweet gaze
See the living that surrounds me
Dissipate in a violent waste
Can't you see what you've done to my heart
And soul...
This is a wasteland now
We spies, we slow hands
Put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah, we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself
I submit my incentive is romance
I watched the pole dance of the stars
We rejoice cause the hurting is so painless
From the distance of passing cars
But I am married to your charms and grace
Just be crazy like the good old days
You make me wanna pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad ways that I love you
Can't you see what you've done to my heart
And soul...
This is a wasteland now
I'm probably not going to post very often on this, as it seems to be that the majority of the posts just involve me being stupid...I wish for a lot of things. I need to stop.
I don't know. I just don't. I'm sorry.
Nobody cares somehow
When the loving that you've wasted
Comes raining from a hapless cloud
I myself may look upon your face
Disappear in the sweet, sweet gaze
See the living that surrounds me
Dissipate in a violent waste
Can't you see what you've done to my heart
And soul...
This is a wasteland now
We spies, we slow hands
Put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah, we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself
I submit my incentive is romance
I watched the pole dance of the stars
We rejoice cause the hurting is so painless
From the distance of passing cars
But I am married to your charms and grace
Just be crazy like the good old days
You make me wanna pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad ways that I love you
Can't you see what you've done to my heart
And soul...
This is a wasteland now
I'm probably not going to post very often on this, as it seems to be that the majority of the posts just involve me being stupid...I wish for a lot of things. I need to stop.
I don't know. I just don't. I'm sorry.
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Nobody ever talks about death in a supermarket.
It's not going to be an eventful post. It's not going to be an eventful day.
The sun will still rise in the east, set in the west, and otherwise bathe us in light.
Motherfucker.
The undertaking of a new action brings new strength.
Night all.
The sun will still rise in the east, set in the west, and otherwise bathe us in light.
Motherfucker.
The undertaking of a new action brings new strength.
Night all.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Damn it, why do I have to make decisions now?
Difficult. Just Difficult.
Not really sure what to do right now, I have some things in mind, but they didn't work before so yeah....
Fuck.
*sigh*
Not really sure what to do right now, I have some things in mind, but they didn't work before so yeah....
Fuck.
*sigh*
Monday, July 19, 2004
Quotes!
I got lost on the road of life.
What's the point of having a home if you don't have a homeless person to drive past to get there?.
The greatest love affair I've ever had was with myself.
What a grand thing, to be loved! What a grander thing still, to love!
I only know two pieces. One is 'Claire de lune', and the other isn't.
I can't listen to too much Wagner. It makes want to invade Poland.
Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought him back.
It is the duty of the old to worry on the behalf of the young. It is the duty of the young to scorn the anxiety of the old.
Never miss a chance to keep your mouth shut.
The birds hung in the air the way bricks don't.
Whenever you feel like crying or running away, sing.
A diplomat is a person who can tell you you're going to hell in such a way that you're looking forward to it.
You must lose a fly to catch a trout.
You don't have to suffer to be a poet; adolescence is enough suffering for anyone.
When in doubt, lie. When not in doubt, lie anyway. You get a better price.
It's OK to sell out. At the right price.
Hope, like the gleaming taper's light,
Adorns and cheers our way;
And still, as darker grows the night,
Emits a brighter ray.
He hoped and prayed that there wasn't an afterlife. Then he realized there was a contradiction involved here and merely hoped that there wasn't an afterlife.
The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
Assume a virtue, if you have it not.
How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.
I have several castles in the air. Would you like to join me?
I saw a couple of cute girls, so I had to dance for them.
Ignorance is bliss.
All perception of truth is the detection of an analogy.
I don't know half of you half as well as I should like; and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve.
Insanity in individuals is something rare - but in groups, parties, nations and epochs, it is the rule.
If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
Pain is just your body's way of saying something is wrong.
I've never been fond of overly political music or overly musical politicians.
Nothing encourages sin as so much as mercy.
Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.
I love acting. It is so much more real than life.
Seek not happiness too greedily, and be not fearful of happiness.
Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can't change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom always to tell the difference.
If hope is all a man has, do not take it from him.
If fifty million people say a foolish thing, it is still a foolish thing.
Death solves all problems - No man, no problem.
He who has never hoped can never despair.
Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former.
Man can never use sex to get what they want. Sex is what they want.
A witty saying proves nothing.
What's the point of having a home if you don't have a homeless person to drive past to get there?.
The greatest love affair I've ever had was with myself.
What a grand thing, to be loved! What a grander thing still, to love!
I only know two pieces. One is 'Claire de lune', and the other isn't.
I can't listen to too much Wagner. It makes want to invade Poland.
Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought him back.
It is the duty of the old to worry on the behalf of the young. It is the duty of the young to scorn the anxiety of the old.
Never miss a chance to keep your mouth shut.
The birds hung in the air the way bricks don't.
Whenever you feel like crying or running away, sing.
A diplomat is a person who can tell you you're going to hell in such a way that you're looking forward to it.
You must lose a fly to catch a trout.
You don't have to suffer to be a poet; adolescence is enough suffering for anyone.
When in doubt, lie. When not in doubt, lie anyway. You get a better price.
It's OK to sell out. At the right price.
Hope, like the gleaming taper's light,
Adorns and cheers our way;
And still, as darker grows the night,
Emits a brighter ray.
He hoped and prayed that there wasn't an afterlife. Then he realized there was a contradiction involved here and merely hoped that there wasn't an afterlife.
The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.
Assume a virtue, if you have it not.
How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.
I have several castles in the air. Would you like to join me?
I saw a couple of cute girls, so I had to dance for them.
Ignorance is bliss.
All perception of truth is the detection of an analogy.
I don't know half of you half as well as I should like; and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve.
Insanity in individuals is something rare - but in groups, parties, nations and epochs, it is the rule.
If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
Pain is just your body's way of saying something is wrong.
I've never been fond of overly political music or overly musical politicians.
Nothing encourages sin as so much as mercy.
Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.
I love acting. It is so much more real than life.
Seek not happiness too greedily, and be not fearful of happiness.
Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can't change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom always to tell the difference.
If hope is all a man has, do not take it from him.
If fifty million people say a foolish thing, it is still a foolish thing.
Death solves all problems - No man, no problem.
He who has never hoped can never despair.
Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former.
Man can never use sex to get what they want. Sex is what they want.
A witty saying proves nothing.
I got lost on the road of life.
Kakashi is sooo cool.
Man, Naruto is hyper-addictive, and i'm up to the chuunin test! and I now know who Gaara is! ooh *spooky music*
My first real day of depression today, I'm such a classic case. Hopefully this doesn't happen too much more.
Yes, that was stupid :P Bye all.
I love technology. Editing is so much easier.
Man, Naruto is hyper-addictive, and i'm up to the chuunin test! and I now know who Gaara is! ooh *spooky music*
My first real day of depression today, I'm such a classic case. Hopefully this doesn't happen too much more.
Yes, that was stupid :P Bye all.
I love technology. Editing is so much easier.
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
Military quotes!
When Bismarck asked the Swiss Ambassador what the 250,000 Swiss Army would do if 500,000 Germans invaded, his reply was "Shoot twice, then go home."
"So, what do you wanna do?"..."I dunno, what do YOU wanna do?"..."I dunno, what do YOU wanna do?," etc. COL (DIA) describing the way OUSD(S) develops and implements their strategies.
"It was seen, visually." LTC (EUCOM) during a Reconnaissance briefing.
I WILL PERSONALLY HUNT AND KILL THE PEOPLE WHO DECIDED TO BRING SASUKE BACK.
You cannot do shit like that and get away with it. Seriously.
Anyway, I think I will do a good, long post detailing all the shit that's happened this holidays, considering how amazingly crazy it's been.
But not right now :P
Yeah, that was pretty stupid, but yes, I will try my best to cover these holidays soon.
I was really using this post as an excuse to post cute little military quotes anyway. Here's the link.
Au revoir all, and please for gods sake, enjoy yourselves! I cbf'ed thinking of a beautiful speech here, but have fun in life as much you can.
"So, what do you wanna do?"..."I dunno, what do YOU wanna do?"..."I dunno, what do YOU wanna do?," etc. COL (DIA) describing the way OUSD(S) develops and implements their strategies.
"It was seen, visually." LTC (EUCOM) during a Reconnaissance briefing.
I WILL PERSONALLY HUNT AND KILL THE PEOPLE WHO DECIDED TO BRING SASUKE BACK.
You cannot do shit like that and get away with it. Seriously.
Anyway, I think I will do a good, long post detailing all the shit that's happened this holidays, considering how amazingly crazy it's been.
But not right now :P
Yeah, that was pretty stupid, but yes, I will try my best to cover these holidays soon.
I was really using this post as an excuse to post cute little military quotes anyway. Here's the link.
Au revoir all, and please for gods sake, enjoy yourselves! I cbf'ed thinking of a beautiful speech here, but have fun in life as much you can.
Saturday, July 10, 2004
A mixed bag really.
Of Anime that is.
First off, something a little serious: I never realised how much of an asshole I could be. Really really sorry to person involved.
...
Sasuke (or Sasky, as Peesh-Corshe calls him)...No...NOT SASKY!!!!
And he had just become Sharingan...*wipes lots of anime tears off face*
Bahahahahah bowling.
Mallrats was teh awesome, though possibly the worst of Jay and Silent Bobs. I have now seen all Jay and Silent Bob. I feel proud.
Ummm...Damn it. *draws blanks*
First off, something a little serious: I never realised how much of an asshole I could be. Really really sorry to person involved.
...
Sasuke (or Sasky, as Peesh-Corshe calls him)...No...NOT SASKY!!!!
And he had just become Sharingan...*wipes lots of anime tears off face*
Bahahahahah bowling.
Mallrats was teh awesome, though possibly the worst of Jay and Silent Bobs. I have now seen all Jay and Silent Bob. I feel proud.
Ummm...Damn it. *draws blanks*
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Okay, okay, this is stupid, But:
You know one of those moments where you don't quite feel right and you really want some chocolate but there's none around, and you think, dammit, you can never get chocolate when you want it? You know one of those?
Well, I just had one of those, and I was scouting for chocolate, when I open my freezer and find: Chocolate Entice!
YES!
My brother actually did something cool for once.
Well, I just had one of those, and I was scouting for chocolate, when I open my freezer and find: Chocolate Entice!
YES!
My brother actually did something cool for once.
Lotsa little things.
I actually consumed some of the other varieties of donuts that Krispy Kreme offers. I never knew that sugar comes in so many different shapes and colours.
Now that I think about it, really there was only one. Clear.
NARUTO!
Lying in the sun
everyday feeling all of the magic in life
and the wonder...
I've having a decentish holidays, I'm starting to get that feeling of lack of doing productiveness which I so love/loathe, so am organising to do things. I just don't know what. Meh.
See, whenever I come to do this, I've have lots of things that I will want to say, but can't remember as i'm doing this, but remember just after I finish doing this. It's annoying. Or indicative of something. Hopefully something stupid.
Either way, I'll go read my LoTR (I'm up the Mines of Moria! yay! Gandalf just 'died'). I sorta kinda want to do review/thoughts on it, but cannot be fucked. It's more or less like people say. I'll do something later after i've done like the first book or something.
Man, I procastinate too much.
I hate election years. Goddamn propaganda.
Night all.
Now that I think about it, really there was only one. Clear.
NARUTO!
Lying in the sun
everyday feeling all of the magic in life
and the wonder...
I've having a decentish holidays, I'm starting to get that feeling of lack of doing productiveness which I so love/loathe, so am organising to do things. I just don't know what. Meh.
See, whenever I come to do this, I've have lots of things that I will want to say, but can't remember as i'm doing this, but remember just after I finish doing this. It's annoying. Or indicative of something. Hopefully something stupid.
Either way, I'll go read my LoTR (I'm up the Mines of Moria! yay! Gandalf just 'died'). I sorta kinda want to do review/thoughts on it, but cannot be fucked. It's more or less like people say. I'll do something later after i've done like the first book or something.
Man, I procastinate too much.
I hate election years. Goddamn propaganda.
Night all.
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Wow.
My teenage angst bullshit is actually start to piss me off.
Life has been good, in its own warped, fucked up sort of way.
I'm far stupider than I could ever realise, and that makes me happy.
I now know what the tube for KY Jelly looks like.
My mum is leaving for the States tomorrow. Well, technically today.
This writing style is starting to annoy me, as do I.
I'd better stop wasting posts.
Bye.
Life has been good, in its own warped, fucked up sort of way.
I'm far stupider than I could ever realise, and that makes me happy.
I now know what the tube for KY Jelly looks like.
My mum is leaving for the States tomorrow. Well, technically today.
This writing style is starting to annoy me, as do I.
I'd better stop wasting posts.
Bye.
Monday, July 05, 2004
I'm posting about posting. Somebody shoot me.
I'm like in the mood but not in the mood to post.
I have lots of things that I need to get off my chest and things to examine and think about and I have no fucking idea what to do.
I had a prolonged blast of fun just then, i'm paying for it physically and mentally. Jesus that's annoying.
Read. Eat. Sleep. Possibly one of the most true things ever said.
Aleatoric: Something characterised by chance; random.
By digitizing thunder and traffic noises, Georgia was able to create aleatoric music.
Goddamn it i'm being really indecisive right now. Fuck it, i'm not gonna bother posting something decent.
Has anyone seen my sexually perverse photographs involving tennis rackets?
My teenage angst bullshit has a body count.
I wish you all happiness.
I have lots of things that I need to get off my chest and things to examine and think about and I have no fucking idea what to do.
I had a prolonged blast of fun just then, i'm paying for it physically and mentally. Jesus that's annoying.
Read. Eat. Sleep. Possibly one of the most true things ever said.
Aleatoric: Something characterised by chance; random.
By digitizing thunder and traffic noises, Georgia was able to create aleatoric music.
Goddamn it i'm being really indecisive right now. Fuck it, i'm not gonna bother posting something decent.
Has anyone seen my sexually perverse photographs involving tennis rackets?
My teenage angst bullshit has a body count.
I wish you all happiness.
Sunday, July 04, 2004
Welcome to the human race. You're a mess.
That's almost exactly how I feel.
It's been...confusing? painfully debilitating? mildly uplifting? I'll have to wait a little while longer I guess.
How long do you have to wait...
In other news, Maria Sharapova beat Serena Williams 6-1, 6-4 to win the 2004 Wimbledon championship.
In related news, the skirts seem to be getting shorter (by this, I mean non-existent) and Sharapova is quite good-looking.
Worse things could happen I suppose. bye bye all.
It's been...confusing? painfully debilitating? mildly uplifting? I'll have to wait a little while longer I guess.
How long do you have to wait...
In other news, Maria Sharapova beat Serena Williams 6-1, 6-4 to win the 2004 Wimbledon championship.
In related news, the skirts seem to be getting shorter (by this, I mean non-existent) and Sharapova is quite good-looking.
Worse things could happen I suppose. bye bye all.
Friday, July 02, 2004
I probably have lost something.
Was not a very good day, certain people are getting really really annoying. Ok, maybe not that annoying, but ANNOYING nevertheless.
So in order, you can have this:
Once upon a time and a very good time there lived three little pigs. These pigs were no ordinary pigs; no, they were veterans of the Vietnam War. They were bitter and resentful about the fact that half the people in the world didn't even know where Vietnam was. For you see, in this world, Vietnam was on another planet, and the pigs were fighting an alien race, bent on the enslavement of this worlds baby animals. It was just a happy coincidence that the world of the alien race was called Vietnam.
Nowadays, these pigs lived out in the open country, where they could be free and happy and wallow in their own filth, if they so wished to do so. One of the piggies was lying in a hammock and reading one of his favourite novels, Cervantes by Don Quixote. The novel went a bit like this:
A long time ago, in faraway Romania, there once lived a man called Cervantes. There has been some dispute over that name; some people claim it to be Cervanto, while others claim it to be Cervantoeosa; but for the sake of pronounciation, we shall call him by his popular name, Cervantes.
Cervantes was by no means a interesting character, so therefore we shall move on to his lovely and beautous wife. His wife was a beautiful woman, who had some very odd interests; she adored tulips and was absolutely smitten by cats. She kept many cats around her, but was unable to procure tulips, as the harsh Romanian climate prevented her from doing so.
One day, Cervantes was coming back from a long day in the tofu fields, only to find himself being cuckolded by no less than the buxom and blonde milkmaid.
'Alas!' He cried. 'Alack! Apain and awoe!' He moaned. He chased out the two scantily clad women onto the street, much to the cheering and delight of onlookers.
'Cuckolded!' Cervantes raged. 'By no less then the buxom and blonde milkmaid!'. He yelled and screamed and broke things till his voice was hoarse, and he had run out of things to break. He mumbled bitterly to himself and sat down to ponder his unfortunate fate.
At this point, the pig was tired, and so promptly went off to sleep.
Meanwhile, another piggie was sitting in his room, cleaning and polishing his large collection of fully loaded, fully functional sniper rifles. He was cleaning the barrel of one his favourite ones right now: The Sig Sauer SG 550. This semi-auto, gas operated baby fired .223 bullets and had a 650mm barrel. The piggie was sitting and cleaning his rifle, when his sensors picked something up. It was that damn bitch Cinderella again, selling her infernal Girl Scout cookies. He only liked the Thin Mints; oh sure, he had the occansional box of the Lemon Pastry Crèmes, but those were low-fat. She kept pestering him to buy her rotten cookies, but now she had gone too far. The piggie resolved to solve this once and for all: he picked up his Swedish-made PSG-90 and picked up the bi-pod. This little piggie was really not feeling too well; he decided to use the sabot case. The sabot case is a 4.81mm tungsten carbide round fired in a sabot case. This round exits the barrel at over 4400 fps (feet per second). He didn't care about the degradation of accuracy, he just wanted her dead.
He set up the bi-pod, set her in the Hendsolt 10x42mm sights and pulled the trigger...
Part 2 coming later. Because i'm lazy.
Nice? Shite? Average? Why? Send your opinions and questions to: ME.
This is what happens when you leave things alone. Have fun all. Night.
So in order, you can have this:
Once upon a time and a very good time there lived three little pigs. These pigs were no ordinary pigs; no, they were veterans of the Vietnam War. They were bitter and resentful about the fact that half the people in the world didn't even know where Vietnam was. For you see, in this world, Vietnam was on another planet, and the pigs were fighting an alien race, bent on the enslavement of this worlds baby animals. It was just a happy coincidence that the world of the alien race was called Vietnam.
Nowadays, these pigs lived out in the open country, where they could be free and happy and wallow in their own filth, if they so wished to do so. One of the piggies was lying in a hammock and reading one of his favourite novels, Cervantes by Don Quixote. The novel went a bit like this:
A long time ago, in faraway Romania, there once lived a man called Cervantes. There has been some dispute over that name; some people claim it to be Cervanto, while others claim it to be Cervantoeosa; but for the sake of pronounciation, we shall call him by his popular name, Cervantes.
Cervantes was by no means a interesting character, so therefore we shall move on to his lovely and beautous wife. His wife was a beautiful woman, who had some very odd interests; she adored tulips and was absolutely smitten by cats. She kept many cats around her, but was unable to procure tulips, as the harsh Romanian climate prevented her from doing so.
One day, Cervantes was coming back from a long day in the tofu fields, only to find himself being cuckolded by no less than the buxom and blonde milkmaid.
'Alas!' He cried. 'Alack! Apain and awoe!' He moaned. He chased out the two scantily clad women onto the street, much to the cheering and delight of onlookers.
'Cuckolded!' Cervantes raged. 'By no less then the buxom and blonde milkmaid!'. He yelled and screamed and broke things till his voice was hoarse, and he had run out of things to break. He mumbled bitterly to himself and sat down to ponder his unfortunate fate.
At this point, the pig was tired, and so promptly went off to sleep.
Meanwhile, another piggie was sitting in his room, cleaning and polishing his large collection of fully loaded, fully functional sniper rifles. He was cleaning the barrel of one his favourite ones right now: The Sig Sauer SG 550. This semi-auto, gas operated baby fired .223 bullets and had a 650mm barrel. The piggie was sitting and cleaning his rifle, when his sensors picked something up. It was that damn bitch Cinderella again, selling her infernal Girl Scout cookies. He only liked the Thin Mints; oh sure, he had the occansional box of the Lemon Pastry Crèmes, but those were low-fat. She kept pestering him to buy her rotten cookies, but now she had gone too far. The piggie resolved to solve this once and for all: he picked up his Swedish-made PSG-90 and picked up the bi-pod. This little piggie was really not feeling too well; he decided to use the sabot case. The sabot case is a 4.81mm tungsten carbide round fired in a sabot case. This round exits the barrel at over 4400 fps (feet per second). He didn't care about the degradation of accuracy, he just wanted her dead.
He set up the bi-pod, set her in the Hendsolt 10x42mm sights and pulled the trigger...
Part 2 coming later. Because i'm lazy.
Nice? Shite? Average? Why? Send your opinions and questions to: ME.
This is what happens when you leave things alone. Have fun all. Night.
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